27.2.05
Im getting so super frustrated with you. If you dont know then why cant you just admit it instead of pretending you know how to do it but in the end you dont do it because you dont know how to do it and feel to embarrased to ask me how to do it? Its not as if I'll laugh at you or anything lor. GRRR.

This is a different person.
I did try my best. I tried to make use of every oportunity to keep in touch with you. But why do I feel as if my efforts have gone to waste? You always claim you miss me, but if you really do, why do you not even bother to talk to me? It disappoints me even more to know that you are still trying as hard as you can to talk to him though you shun me aside and pretend im not there. Were you even close to him? Sure you had a crush on him. Of course you thought he was special. But for goodness sake how much of him did you actually get to know? How has he helped you during primary school? And why are you so sure that he will always be there for you, when he doesn't even try to talk to you? So you're going to forget how special our friendship was. You're going to concentrate on him, whom you've talked less to, but assume that one fine day he would finally like you if you continue to keep in touch with him. And you're going to kick me aside. Im not jealous. I just find it totally disappointing that despite all that I have done for you, despite all that we shared, the one which you only bothered to keep in touch with is him.

Maybe its because I've never had a crush on a guy before, so I never had such feelings and I dont understand what it's like to have such feelings. But I just want to tell you how disappointed I am.
Sunday, February 27, 2005

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